ever gotten back from a mental torpor carrying 10 random things inside your head? i think i wrote this before but, i still hear these noises at the back of my head, and when i try to switch them off, they've already instructed my fingers to type the codes.
#1
work. i'm starting to miss work, but i'm not really missing it. let's just say i miss slave-driving myself, but the kind of things i do at work, nah, it's really hard to look forward to. my veins clamor for work, but on the one hand enjoys peaceful couch potato days (especially during a heavy downpour).
#2
certainty. ever hated yourself for not being a tad uncertain of how you feel (for a person)? always wished that coffee could work its magic and make me a little unsure about this love thing. *think that i didn't just write this ok?*
#3
multi-tasking. my being afflicted with ADHD may be the culprit behind the 20 different chores done and finished in just a snap. (i'm exaggerating but this is a bit close) i mean, how do i manage to understand what the other person is saying on the other line while i skim through a web article (and still understand it) while cutting paper and pasting it on a cardboard, while exercising my ankles and making quiet comments inside my head? am i that strange? or is this normal? i'm starting to scare myself.
#4
music. when i want to learn something, i can feel the quick and smooth rushing of adrenaline inside me (no traffic jam at all). like today. i realized, i (really) BADLY want to learn how to play sax. i've already checked stores where i can buy the instrument. but it's way too expensive for someone as poor as me. dang. where did i ever get this idea anyhow. grrr.
#5
birthday. i've got less than 3 months to tether myself so i can stop 'me' from doing anything caramelly sweet. a wrong move can lead me into a lifetime of humiliation. or, something worse. better be VERY VERY VERY careful. i'll practice dodgeball again.
#6
sneakers and shoes. huff. i want new pairs. my shoes are all worn out. it's hateful when you're working like a dog but still can't buy the things you need. err. and want. and then you'll hear a korean actress say "you better choose nice shoes, because they take you to good places". thank you for the encouragement.
#7
idiot. when will that female hobbit and her ogre husband get enough of our country's money? everytime i see them in the news, my hands can't help themselves from grabbing my dad's 10kilo dumbell and aim it at their noses. seriously, there are a lot of things that can convince me to stay in this country, and only one thing that strongly gives me a reason to drag myself outta here. gloria mother father.
#8
darna. what's up with darna? why, for the love of sbarro spaghetti with meatballs, would anyone accept a project which will require you to shoot half-naked three-fourths of the time? geez. i don't really understand showbiz.
#9
koreanovela. i used to be a cynic when it comes to koreanovelas. i thought they were just crap. but after seeing boys over flowers (boys before flowers), i'm done with the antagonistic role. the koreans really made it worth my time. (it's OA but really. i've seen the whole 25 episodes thrice. besides, it was my friend when i was alone and sick. *barfing sound*)
#10
sweet. i guess, like what little Calvin said, it's really hard to be mad at someone who misses you while you're asleep.
these are nothing really. don't mind me. :D
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